If you know me at all you know that I am a huge fan of Taylor Swift. I have been since the very beginning of her career and it never stopped. I admire that she may get knocked down but she keeps rising up out of the ashes in a new way every time she puts out something new. I admire that she is a strong and independent female who for the most part was very self made. She is a bright woman and that’s obvious by how she has been able to manage her career and business. Let’s be honest her career is a business the way that she runs it.
I love how she has risen from all the drama of the past year and came out fighting and fierce. That is showing the strength that she really has and that is inspiring to people who may not always have that inner strength to do that. Her new song is just that a song about not backing down, about rising up from the drama, about owning who you are, and about reinventing yourself to be stronger. Remember everyone panicking when she just abruptly deleted all of her social media. Well sometimes that can end up being the best thing for a person to do.
I have been feeling very lonely and my depression right now has really taken control of my life. I decided that I was going to take a page from her book. I wiped out my Instagram of all my personal photos. I wiped out my Facebook of all my personal photos and personal posts. I deleted all of my tweets in my twitter feed. I created a clean slate to start over. I am going to go through my friends lists and really narrow it down to my family and people that I am still in contact with. If I am not in contact with a person and haven’t been for more than a year there is no reason for them to continue to be on my Facebook page.
I am determined to rise above this feeling that I’m having right now. It’s not going to be an easy battle. It’s going to be really hard. Depression and Anxiety disorders are a daily struggle to get yourself going in the morning. I am going to do better. I’m not going to let my depression control me and cause me to just lay in bed all day and do nothing. I’m going to get up and get out and do things. I’m going to go back to doing things that I enjoyed doing. I’m going to go back to the gym and just using that hour and a half to get away from everything and decompress. I’m going to eat better so that I can look better and feel better about myself.
The only person who can change the way you feel is you. The only person who can make my life better is me. I’m the one that needs to make the effort to improve my situation and needs to take control of what is happening. That’s why I’ve decided to start on a clean slate. To start changing things and making things better for me. To rise from the ashes and come out stronger. To be better than I was before.
So if you want to know why I listen to people like Carrie Underwood, Taylor Swift, Lady Gaga…it’s because they inspire me to take control, to be proud to be a woman, to be proud of my independence, and to be strong.